Sunday, December 14, 2008

Routines and Frustration

Do you ever wake up and sort of dread your life?
I woke up this morning, began putting on my running clothes and realized that I do the exact same things every day.
Sunday's: My long runs, grocery shopping, church, baking
Monday-Thursday's (This same thing every day): Work, change into running clothes at 445 pm, get out of work at 5 on the dot, go to the gym, run, come home and make dinner, make lunch for the next day
Friday's: Same as Monday through Thursday but since this is my husbands night off I have to rush my run and get home for us to go to dinner.
Saturdays are my non running days, but those are pretty routine with shopping and a movie with the husband.
This is my routine every single week. And for some reason lately it has been driving me crazy. I even make the same exact lunch every single day. Can someone tell me if this is really pathetic or not?
Im sitting here watching people on tv roaming the streets of Venice and I am so envious of them. I want to just drop everything and fly to some other country right now and just roam the streets for days.
I of course don't have that luxury right now, I have a new job and don't have any vacation for the whole year of my probation period. Really, if you think about it, what life is that to live. I mean, I enjoy my job and it keeps me busy, but sometimes I just want a life where I just drop everything and go on adventures with no bills or loans to worry about.
My husband and I wanted to wait on having kids so we could have the freedom to travel and go on adventures before we cant because of kids. Look at us though, he works in the casino industry and hasn't have any time off for a whole year, and I am now starting a job where I wont be able to have any time off for a year.
Wow, for some reason I feel like some of my posts have been real debbie downers lately, but Im just kind of feeling blah right now...I'm sure it has to do with the holidays and how busy and hectic everything is, but I don't want to one day look back on my life and wish I had done more. I know I'm young, but I don't want to get stuck saying "someday we will travel when we have time" the more a person says that, the less time it seems they really have.
What a scary thought, but for now, I wish I could get out of my mundane routine, but I just don't know how.

1 comment:

LoraLoo said...

No, it's not pathetic...I think we all have this happen at one time or another. Predictable is easy.

Call up a girlfriend and have a night out to somewhere you've never been. Maybe go to a travel agency and plan a trip with your husband, not even necessarily buying the tickets yet, just make up your mind you're gonna do it.